Sad Girl Poems and Other Writings Poem Text

Sad Girl Poems and Other Writings Poem Text

MYSELF WHEN I’M REAL

Say my body // isn’t a sequin dress—

Isn’t a raw fish, being stripped of scales.

Say I’m not // a drunken disco ball

In a lonely skating rink.

Or the deep wishing-well // the starfish fell

Into.

Say I’m the seagull // before its bad reputation.

Say I’m the pigeon //

But not the pigeon-shit.

Say I’m the cassette tape

Whose hair unwound // underwater—

Whose hair // you swim through.

The record player whose vinyl

Will never scratch.

Call me by my birth name—

Frida Kahlo.

Call me by my birth name—

Tuira Kayapó.

Remind me // how the sky was created.

Say—

I split the sun, like yolk

& let the day fall into me.

If our love is a trash bag

Please // don’t let it tear.

You’re the reason I live.

You pour my coffee black.

You critique the dim glow, the mint-

Blue hue of television screens.

You stumbled into me

[Again & again]

Like a child, discovering the word

Domestic-violence.

How dumb // we must have been—

To hold each other so frailly.

To hold anything at all—

The blue landscape of January days.

The taste of pan dulce—

The gummy smile of a teething child.

The pearl in an oysters’ mouth, round

Like //

My semen on your tongue.

ARS POETICA

A dove falls from the clouds, I name it Rory.

I wring its neck like a washcloth // then wipe

My face.

I want everything to have purpose—

The beak, the bones, the baby blue

Vodka veins.

This is such a useless fucking poem.

[He’s not coming back].

I grind his wings into glitter

& throw him into the air // like a child.

I grind his wings into ash

& throw him into the earth // like a casket.

Part Two: Stop it. Stop writing about him

Already. Fuck.

None of this is about Rory.

It’s all about me.

The ocean cut its sky two sets of blue.

A horizon bleeds at sunset.

I’ve always wanted to put those lines in a poem

Somewhere. They sound so tragic & beautiful.

But they mean nothing to me— Rory.

HOME

A Villanelle

Waves taped to my face, I’m crying

Then sucking dick for rent. When the

Police lights drift across me like rose petals.

Rory, I’m not sure how we got here.

Two punk faggots, sleeping in the

Parking lot outside of Casino Morango. I’m crying

Every time he plays the sad song in my

Mouth. [Smack these teeth like piano keys]. Watch

The Police lights drift across my windshield.

Rory, do you think we can outlive this?

[The sound of conch shells cracking].

Waves taped to my face. I have

Five dollars left— if we go to the gas station

How far away can you drive drunk?

Lights spinning across the pavement

& I piss on the great saguaro; with my

Lips split open & wide owl eyes.

[I’m broken like a wishbone].

Police lights call me “criminal.”

Christopher Soto

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