In his private journal, Marcus Aurelius records his rigorous thoughts processes. The journal appears to have been kept later in life. He begins with an account of the many people who have helped Aurelius arrive at who he is today. In an overview, he discusses stoicism and philosophy in years previous to his own experience, offering both admiration and criticism.
The middle section of the journal takes a more introspective turn. Aurelius considers the nature of duty and its impact upon his own life. In Book 8 he concludes that he will never be a true philosopher and expresses a deep despair. He lists a great many regrets, pondering the fast approach of his death. He finds solace in a consideration of the gods' benevolence and their continued interference in the human life. While the gods place expectations upon humanity, they ultimately offer some protection and blessing upon the people.
Aurelius concludes with a recognition of his own death. He believes it will come soon, so he is overwhelmed by a desire to make his peace. He wants to establish himself a good place in death, so he devotes some time to restating his core beliefs and major achievements. In his postscript, he declares confidently that he anticipates his tasks in the next life because he believes in the benevolence of the gods.
