does sarah hide her true self from everyone,including herself?

No, in the end Sarah's true self is evident, even if she see herself from a more stringent point of view. Sarah is married to one man and having an affair with another. Her marriage is devoid of love, but they do have an affectionate relationship. Her husband Henry dreads the day she will finally leave him even if he does mistrust her, but her lover Bendrix actually feels the same way. She doesn't invoke trust in either of the men in her life.

Henry and Bendrix are both jealous of Sarah; both believe her to be disloyal, and yet Bendrix is the man she initially gives up. I don't want to give away the entire plot, but it is Sarah who makes a pledge to God when she ends the affair the first time, and she does it for unselfish reasons, the main reason being love.

When the resume their relationship they make plans like a normal couple, Bendrix realizes that she loves him, and yet he believes her to be having another affair all at the same time. Where's the trust?

Sarah begins the novel as a character intent upon experiencing a life of pleasure; she is very selfish, and up until she leaves Bendrix the first time doesn't give a thought to how she's hurt her husband. The main question and ensuing answer comes not from the affairs or the love but the breaking of promises. This story isn't about the husband or the lover, but rather the cause and effect of making promises that can't be kept, and the effect it has on the story's main characters. Sarah is in fact what she claims to be, but in the end she is so much more............ she finds her self and that 'true' self does not stay hidden.

No, in the end Sarah's true self is evident, even if she see herself from a more stringent point of view. Sarah is married to one man and having an affair with another. Her marriage is devoid of love, but they do have an affectionate relationship. Her husband Henry dreads the day she will finally leave him even if he does mistrust her, but her lover Bendrix actually feels the same way. She doesn't invoke trust in either of the men in her life.

Henry and Bendrix are both jealous of Sarah; both believe her to be disloyal, and yet Bendrix is the man she initially gives up. I don't want to give away the entire plot, but it is Sarah who makes a pledge to God when she ends the affair the first time, and she does it for unselfish reasons, the main reason being love.

When the resume their relationship they make plans like a normal couple, Bendrix realizes that she loves him, and yet he believes her to be having another affair all at the same time. Where's the trust?

Sarah begins the novel as a character intent upon experiencing a life of pleasure; she is very selfish, and up until she leaves Bendrix the first time doesn't give a thought to how she's hurt her husband. The main question and ensuing answer comes not from the affairs or the love but the breaking of promises. This story isn't about the husband or the lover, but rather the cause and effect of making promises that can't be kept, and the effect it has on the story's main characters. Sarah is in fact what she claims to be, but in the end she is so much more............ she finds her self and that 'true' self does not stay hidden.