what is ender's self realization after being granted to 'Fairyland'

This part of the game is solely Ender's game, and the symbols in the game directly reflect Ender's life and mind. Ender really is at the "End of the World" in that the future of humankind seems to rest on him. Ender proves willing to jump into the abyss, but he does so without the hope of surviving; he is content with the beauty and willing to see what happens. In the bugger war and some of the battles, Ender must be willing to jump "down" and do the best he can, regardless of the usual rules.