Bud, Not Buddy, Chapter 12, page 148, is Bud determined or Bud can't cry anymore, the last paragraph?

Buddy is determined not to cry, and he's gotten very good at controlling his emotions. It's practice.... not a lack of feeling.

I knew if I was a regular kid I'd be crying buckets of tears now, I didn't want these men to think I was a baby so I was real glad that my eyes don't cry no more. My nose plugged up and a little growl came out of my mouth but I kept my finger pointed, cleared my throat and said, "I know it's you."